Popular Songs About Feeling Bad
That was the year I ended marriages. I don’t know why
but many women left their men and swore to me of happiness.
Later that year I heard I have the disease that will either
kill me or not, either very quickly or not. I have to think the two
connected, the way anything empty might become a planter
box. Canoe suspended from a balcony, shellacked
top hat. Desire always asks two questions but sometimes one
sounds like an answer. I pressed into one over the dry
fountain where jugglers assembled, her face in the cut of the
curtain giving onto my balcony. I figured failing at finding
an apartment could mean succeeding at finding yourself at dusk
in a piazza, near a fountain with dogs splashing in it, or a fountain
with marble dogs built around it, or a fountain built around some dogs,
and love might be like that, a thickening emptiness at its center,
failure blossoming like the piazza did at dusk. Enough happened
that year I don’t care now if anything does. More and more, life
seems made of listening, and modeling listening to any who might
look to me, then finding no one is. I live alone on a small
coast with little but the education we have in common,
one wrote me. Another, now a nurse, said don’t ask if your bleeding
is normal but if it will be fatal. At dusk there are hummingbirds
in the butterfly tree. If I don’t feel as much anymore it is
like when a blade silences a piano, not by severing its strings,
just by obstructing the hammers. But sometimes I feel as much as always.
can we start a club for teenagers who were constantly complimented on their intelligence when they were younger and are now having trouble coping with the realization that they’re actually of average intellect at best
in elementary school i constantly scored as reading at a college level but then i got to college and suddenly everyone’s reading at college level.
I HAVE NEVER SEEN A POST THAT SO ACCURATELY DESCRIBES MY LIFE.
I worry that my feminism tag is more about rape than it is about feminism. Are the two independent? Are they not? Where does this issue belong?
I want to thank you for this answer. The affirmation was needed.